As most of you know I have struggled on and off with sciatica for the past 5 years. Its always been painful but i've always been able to work/run through it. I had no idea how bad it could get, and as of late, BAD doesn't describe it. In the past few weeks, my sciatic pain has taken over my life. My chiropractor sees me everyday, sometimes twice a day in hopes to relieve the pressure on the nerve that is causing the most crippling lower back, hip and leg pain I have ever experienced. I can't walk, get in and out of my car, sit up, lay down, bend over, get in bed, roll over in bed, sit on my couch, get up off the floor with out the sharpest of pain (I keep refering to it as a 10) on the pain scale. Basically, in crude terms, it sucks.
I have always imagined that I would have a fabulous and fit pregnancy. I would eat only organic, workout daily and be as cute as can be...things are not as I imagined. Aside from my wicked Taco Bell Double Decker cravings, I can't workout (let alone lay in bed) and i've already gained an awesome 20 lbs. You can throw "cute" right out the window too, because there is nothing cute about a penny-less waddling whale.
MC keeps reminding me that I have one job to do right now and that is to grow a healthy little boy to term; it's my life's most important task, but i'd be lying if I told you this severe pain I'm living with isn't starting to bring me down just a bit.
Last night as I lay in bed wondering if I would ever get to sleep through the pain, my little boy started moving around like a mad man. It lasted a good 15 minutes and it was some of his strongest moves yet! We can already feel him through my belly. He's so cute, my little dancer. Everytime I feel him move, i'm reminded that things will get better, and hopefully all this pain is temporary. Soon I will be holding my little bean and the pain will be a thing of the past.
In the meantime, thanks to my Chiropractor's who know my pain is real and are working with me daily and to my MC who helps me get through the long painful, sometimes tearful nights. I love you baby.
Oh you poor thing! I am so sorry about your horrible pain but Matt is right and I know you may feel like throwing a rock at him b/c he doesn't know what the pain is like but it won't last forever. I hope it goes away real soon and I think you are a beauty. Your little boy just needs a healthy mommy and if that means Taco Bell (by the way nice choice about the double decker) then so be it. :) Love you and hang in there, ok?
ReplyDeletepenniless waddling whale... wow. listen, you're fantastic. penniless, that i don't know about, did you just buy a house? you can't be that poor? you're hardly a whale, yet. 20 pounds is nothing. you are so cute pregnant! and you're having a baby, not being lazy shoving taco bell down your throat while lounging on the couch. this is the time to eat eat eat b/c baby weight gain will fly right off.
ReplyDeleteas far as your back pain, body pain, holy hell i had no idea!! i am so sorry! i am sending love from LA, i am sending good thoughts and prayers. can you do pregnancy yoga? i suffer from back pain too, so i sort of know how you feel, but i nowhere nearly understand daily chiropractor visits, whoa. i love you girl and take care of you.