Maternity Shoot Update

A few weeks ago MC and I had a mini-maternity session.  We got our pictures back today and I've had fun going through them all!  Below are some of my favorites (in addition to the ones featured in my sneak peeks!) from the two very talented ladies! They did a great job hiding the fact that we were in the midst of a major wind storm!  PS.  I think my Baby Daddy is smokin hot.

**Photo credits: Melissa Vossler Photography and Eden Rose Photography

Belly Update

Check out my H-U-G-E-N-E-S-S at the Koo Koo's Nest!

Why I'm Struggling

When Baby Bean is born, I will be using 2 years worth of saved up vacation and sick leave as my maternity leave.  All of this will total 6 weeks.  Our inital plan was to have me work from home part-time for the next 6 weeks so I could be home and around the Babe for a full 3 months.  Last week MC and I decided that there was no way we could afford to pull off the latter part of the plan.  Since we decided this, I have been in a really trying place mentally.  I absolutely cannot deal with the idea of leaving my 6-week old with anyone...even the most capable of hands.  He's my baby, he's my little buddy.  We've been a unit for almost 10 months now.  He kickes me, makes me puke, pee my pants, gives my heartburn, we listen to tunes together, make food choices together, we do everything together.  How can I feel OK not having him around?  I feel as though I am going to miss so much.  The little smiles when he wakes up from his nap, when he first rolls over, when he first sits up, when he starts to scoot about...the list goes on.  I'm in tears just thinking about it.

I feel so discouraged.  I know there are worse things out there.  I know some people deal with tougher situations.  MC tells me to look at the brightside of things, still, I cannot find any peace in the thought of leaving him for 40 hours a week.

I'm heartbroken.  Any Momma's out there have advice for this super-sad first timer?

Maternity Shoot

Last Friday MC and I were lucky to have a Mini-Session with Melissa Vossler and Eden Thome, two very talented photographers and sweet gals in the Reno-Tahoe area.  The session was a quick 20 minutes and I'm glad because I don't have the wall space necessary to display all of their awesomeness.

Sneak Peeks Below!

(Photo Courtesy of Eden Rose Photograpghy)

(Photo Courtesy of Melissa Vossler Photography)

Belly Update

New baby belly pics posted at the KooKoo's Nest.  Enjoy my 29 weeks of roundness.

xoxo

Welp, She Said It

Went to my monthly baby doctor appointment today and I was sorta bummed (OK, totally bummed) when the doctor told me she was concerned about how much weight I've put on.  At this point in my pregnancy, i've put on a pound per week...more than I would like, but I really didn't think it was anything to be concerned about. I guess it just blows when you already feel fat and then someone confirms it. I knew MC was lying...LOL. My main complaint is that I physically cannot workout because of my sciatica so what am I supposed to do?!  She told me to cut out carbs which is awesome because nothing says "yummy" like a big juicy steak or chicken breast right now.  Gross.

My plan of attack is to just start working out again, I mean, I see my chiropractor everyday anyways, what's a little extra back/leg pain?  Also I will just continue to eat healthy as I do, but be extra careful not to stop by Taco Bell when I get "the calling!" 

On a happy note,  MC's soccer season started up again.  I love soccer season.  Usually it means I get to sit out in the sunshine for a few hours on Sunday and watch my husband run around like a super sexy version of David Beckham! Good Times.

Love, Fatty

Sciatic Pain and Baby Moves

As most of you know I have struggled  on and off with sciatica for the past 5 years.  Its always been painful but i've always been able to work/run through it.  I had no idea how bad it could get, and as of late, BAD doesn't describe it.  In the past few weeks, my sciatic pain has taken over my life.  My chiropractor sees me everyday, sometimes twice a day in hopes to relieve the pressure on the nerve that is causing the most crippling lower back, hip and leg pain I have ever experienced.  I can't walk, get in and out of my car, sit up, lay down, bend over, get in bed, roll over in bed, sit on my couch, get up off the floor with out the sharpest of pain (I keep refering to it as a 10) on the pain scale.  Basically, in crude terms, it sucks. 

I have always imagined that I would have a fabulous and fit pregnancy.  I would eat only organic, workout daily and be as cute as can be...things are not as I imagined.  Aside from my wicked Taco Bell Double Decker cravings, I can't workout (let alone lay in bed) and i've already gained an awesome 20 lbs.  You can throw "cute" right out the window too, because there is nothing cute about a penny-less waddling whale.

MC keeps reminding me that I have one job to do right now and that is to grow a healthy little boy to term; it's my life's most important task, but i'd be lying if I told you this severe pain I'm living with isn't starting to bring me down just a bit.

Last night as I lay in bed wondering if I would ever get to sleep through the pain, my little boy started moving around like a mad man.  It lasted a good 15 minutes and it was some of his strongest moves yet!  We can already feel him through my belly.  He's so cute, my little dancer.  Everytime I feel him move, i'm reminded that things will get better, and hopefully all this pain is temporary.  Soon I will be holding my little bean and the pain will be a thing of the past.

In the meantime, thanks to my Chiropractor's who know my pain is real and are working with me daily and to my MC who helps me get through the long painful, sometimes tearful nights.  I love you baby.